seconds before u die~

sudah 2 minggu puasa berlalu..rasa macam sekejap sahaja..this year puasa, me n my dear husband sudah ada babyyyy..last year masih berdua..iyo lah nk bertigo macam mano..dah baru kawin time tu hehe pergi terawih sama2..lepas terawih kami mesti pergi moreh (favorite station: restoran haslam) buka puasa berdua for the 1st time..jalan2 berdua..tp this year mcm sedih sikit sb there's nothing that i can do much during this holy month..nk pergi terawih pun tak boleh..except kalau my mother come over bolehlah dia jaga baby sekejap, nak masak pun tak boleh kerana my baby likes to 'tepekk' but im happy at the same time as i can take care of my only baby myself :D

i still remember talking to my brother n my dear husband about the plane crash as we were waiting for subuh prayer after sahur..i like to talk and ask my 'not-so-little-brother-anymore' any questions (within his expertise) because he's a 'walking encyclopedia' just like my elder sister hehehe lagiiii..i told him about my near death experience in the aircraft..seriously thats the scariest felling i've ever felt in my whole life..memang la saya suka thrill feeling tp yang ini is about hidup atau mati..dan saya kdg2 wonder what's the feeling the seconds b4 we die..i always wonder about things..but i try to avoid from wondering about anything now as eventually it's gonna happen to me in order for me to understand how, what and why! oh tidakk :s here's the story..  

i vaguely remember bulan ianya berlaku tapi it was after syawal 2011 and i was about 7 wks pregnant kot (not sure..but early pregnancy). me and my dear husband take turn turun naik kl..mcm kalau this weekend dia pulang ke kampung so the nxt weekend is my turn to go to kl..that time i really love to fly with Firefly sb airport subang dekat sikit..my dear husband nk pg fetch kan..lg pun aircraft kecik kan rasa friendly gitu..ATR 72-500 (tanya my walking encyclopedia jap) :D

time tu monsoon season..i took the 6pm ++ flight..my mom dah warn kalau nk ambik firefly better fly tghari (dia frequent flyer) kalau nk avoid unwanted scary air pockets dan yg sewaktu dgn nya..masalahnya saya dah beli tix awal2..if i want to change the time..it will cost me more $$$$$$..so that evening..i kissed my dear husband goodbye dan berlalu with the hope that i will arrive safely...

the flight was really smooth besides there was this mokcik that forgot or purposely did not off her handphone..2-3kali jgk la handphone dia berbunyi dan dia sgt tergopoh gapah mencari handphonenya..hp tu mmg ada dlm handbag dia tp kalau dah cari dlm keadaan yg begitu x jumpa la jawapnya..saya patut kesian ke..gelakkk? dan saya pastinya memilih utk gelakkk hahahahaha haishh asyik saya mengelamun sepanjang perjalanan tgk keluar tingkap (saya selalu dapat window seat :D) ..the co-pilot bg command nk touch down..owh dah nk maghrib..i could see the lights dari bawah n on the runaway..tp blinking2 n never tought that blinking2 tu adalah disebabkan hujan yg sgt lebat..dlm mind saya dah set nanti dah nk touch down tu kena angkat sikit punggung sb takut apa2 jd to my little fetus in case of rough landing..(mmg dah agak rough landing sb selalu pun mcm tu except ada 1 time tu terpuji adik sendiri tanpa mengetahui dia yang sedang menerbangkan aircraft itu)..time aircraft tgh melakukan 1st attempt to touch down..tiba2 saya dan keseluruh people dlm kapal tu dpt dgr bunyi yang pelik mcm angin yang terlalu kuat (sgt scary ok) smp la bila tayar dah nk touch runaway aircraft jadi tak balance n i could sense something was not right sb saya duduk tengah2 aircraft (belakang sikit dari aircraft punya wings) dan saya blh nampak end light of the runaway..maksudnya..kapal itu sengetttt dan runaway dah nk habisssss! mmg dah touch runaway tapi lepas 3 kali bumping dgn kuattt dengan bunyi yang pelik itu..in 15 seconds je kapal dah naik ke atas blk..naik till tempat tak ada awan..suasana sunyi sepi kejap..tiba2 kedengaran bunyi suara2 yang sedang ketakutan..ada yang menjerit2 'apa nk jadi dgn kita niiiiii' selama 5 kali :D ..ada yang mengucap dua kalimah syahadah..paling annoying ado srg lelaki ni..pg on n off reading lights byk kali..(try imagine..dlm aircraft tu gelap sb nk landing dia pg main lampu tu) well, couldnt say much sb different people will react differently bila dah panic..as for me..in my mind..hanya my family..if my life would end this way..saya redha..cuma saya harap org akan jumpa saya dalam keadaan baik n not in pieces (if u know what i mean) nasib baik dah sembahyang..nasib baik dah masak utk my dear husband n brother walaupun nasi grg cuma..

2nd attempt..i would say the captain + co-pilot were really brave..aircraft dah in the middle of the clouds n runaway..tiba2 bunyi engine sgt pelikkk n bunyi hujan dpt dgr dari dlm kapal..menandakan hujan sgt lebatttt..dlm beberapa seconds jgklah aircraft naik keatas balik..oh seriously pening nk muntahhhh..rasa macam naik rollercoaster superman kt goldcoast tu..hehe org kat sblah sy dah panik..dia pegang je handle seat tu..kuat gileeeerr..sambil mulut terkumat kamit..saya survey keadaan dlm aircraft..kali ni tak ada bunyi jerit2 lg..org yang seat the other side pun dah tak main lampu dan hanya memejamkan mata.. attempt nk landing tu byk kali tp yang betul2 nk land tu hanya 3 kot..selepas sejam berlegar2 diatas udara kami landed dgn selama time tu dah nk pkl 8 malam..Alhamdulillah...fuhhh..bila aircraft betul2 stop, bunyi 'pap..pap..pap' semua org mcm nk cepat2 buka seat belt n keluar dari situ..dannnn rupanya..org yang jerit2 'apa nk jadi dgn kita ni' saya sangat kenalll..itu dia dukturrr pakar ituuu..di private hospital itu..saya tegur dia..tp dia dah mcm tak nampak org..nk cepat2 keluar..saya tanya khabar mokcik kt tepi seat saya sb dia mcm nk pitam..dia ckp dia pening..tp nampak tenang je..saya antara org2 yang last keluar dari situ..dan bila keluar hujan masih renyai2 dan kelihatan duktur itu sedang bercakap telefon sambil menangis2 menceritakan pengalaman kami..

selesai ambil bag dari conveyor tu,,saya terus keluar dan kelihatan my sister sudah menunggu saya di dalam kereta..hampir sejam lebih dia tunggu..kesian dah la demam..saya punggah bag letak dlm kereta dah saya di seat sebelah driver terasa selamat  dan saya senyap seketika mengingati apa yang terjadi..Alhamdulillah saya masih hidup..selepas 10mins saya menceritakan pada my sister..fuhhh

after the incident i avoid flying with firefly + ianya mahal sekarang+ fobia! saya penumpang kerap airasia + ianya murah..tp time ada air pocket saya hanya pejamkan mata..dalam hati sgt takutttt okkk